Noxious

I am under the impression this weekend will kick ass. Didnt have to work tonight so thats real good too. Tomorrow is dedicated soley to Harry Potter prepartaion and veiwing. After, party. Math today, not bad. The christmas music on the radio is very appeciated. Sides for that, my love to all of those who won mock elctions and have a good night. see you this weekend.

I am really excited for Christmas. Really really excited. I have a feeling it will be better than normal if that is even possible seeing as how Christmas is the best time of year, always and everytime. I am also happy because this year i have money to spend on gifts for those of you i love (that is not to say if i dont have a present for you i do not love you)... not that it really matters what the gift is or how much is spent on it. its the thought that counts right? But how does the receiver know the amount of thought that goes into it? Whats the difference to them between a bad present that the giver really thought about and a bad present the giver just picked up at the last minute and slapped a bow on and called it thoughtful? Thats my problem with picking out gifts for friends. I guess that means i have a certain fear of rejection or of disappointing the people i love. Sigh. I wish i knew why i was here. the answer to the original question would sure help. I hope everyone is full of love and patience. Dont live preoccupied. We miss too much that way. Live for the answers, sparing only what is needed to preoccupation and we will all benefit from it. You are my best friends, Nora.

i love good nights.
i love my friends
and i love how it never really mattered at all, i just thought it did.
i will miss you, brian! be good and dont forget

i am almost the proud new new owner of my second place. monday it is final.

I have to give them back.
My eyes hurt. I've been really sad.

I got 'em.
October 1st. 730. The Temple. third row balcony center.

If you want to go with me ($100) then let me know.

This ecstasy i feel can not be understood. alkdfjl;kajslkfg lkauo opaiueojasfldu0j ahhhh.

success: distributed my 200 baby preying mantus this morning.

it was well worth the wait. they were late bloomers. hope that doesnt mean they are doomed.


and i spose thats it.

Donnie Darko is mind-blowing.
&
The Piston's are sweet.



We need new boys... and even tans... and summer to never end... with parties... and memories... and love.

well, summer is here and it hasnt yet hit me. there are about 4826 things i want to do this summer, and i hope i have time. today i went to my grandma's house for brunch (father's day/grandma's bday/uncle norm's bday)(we like to condense). it was a good brunch. i really wanted to go to that art fair down in royal oak this weekend but i didnt have enough time (see above)... because i tanned instead. and this was kinda weird. i was laying on my house deck and my mailman (eric) suddenly follows my dad up onto the deck from out of the garage. so heres eric the mailman (who i love and sorta have a crush on)standing on my deck in nonmailman clothes (which is real weird) while i am laying down, lets face it, pretty close to naked.. oo it was real weird. he just got a motorcycle, thats why he was in my backyard.. but come to think of it.. hes in the backyard a lot, my dad and him are friends, i guess.

so i hear the pistons are on tonight and mandie is back so good. jeffrey is supposed to call but we'll see if he comes through. pat left for germany today.. kt chels and i went to his house to bid him farewell last night and to hear all about his god awful hangover.

call if you should want to go to mother fletchers with me tomorrow, i need picture outfits.. i got em all planned out.. i just need to hunt everything i need for them down.

JACK, HOW COULD YOU!!!!
I AM IN UTTER CONFUSION AND DISBELIEF!
I THOUGHT WE HAD SOMETHING, I THOUGHT I MENT SOMETHING TO YOU!
I GUESS I WAS JUST ANOTHER GRAMMY ON YOUR SELF.
SHES YOUR TYPE BUT IM CUTER, AND LIKE THE AMAZON WAY MORE.
I BET SHE WAS COMPAINING THE WHOLE TIME ABOUT THE BUGS AND ALIGATORS.
I LIKE BUGS
I LIKE ALIGATORS
WHY DIDNT YOU PICK ME
IT COULD HAVE BEEN ME
I WOULD HAVE LOVED YOU MORE
DID YOU DO IT TO SPITE ME?
RENEE?
YOU DIDNT EVEN INVITE ME.
ITS NOT LIKE YOU CAN JUST MOVE ON
NOT WHEN I AM SO DISTRESSED
YOUR CONSCIOUS WONT LET YOU
I WONT LET YOU,
ROSES ARE RED
VIOLETS ARE BLUE
JACK, HOW COULD YOU?
I DONT BELIEVE YOU!!!



phew...
thats what i needed.
jeez thats really creepy. whats wrong with me?

preface:
i know this entry looks kinda long and rather intimidating, but you should really read through the whole thing thoroughly and carfully, digesting its content and finding the true meanings of the words on the screen for one reason only and that being that it could change your life. this is not just a lame update, but rather very important knowledge that i have drafted and edited to encourage everyone on in your lives and root for the home team (that is you, because you are my friend) and because knowledge is power as they say, i suggest if you want to be powerful you practice reading, cuz that is how you learn by doing just that to this...

summer is dangerously near. and i hope it is going to be all i am dreaming it will be, and those dreams are intense so look out if you are in them.

the pool is open and i checked the temp.. 75 degrees. i wish it was 98 degrees, because then it could sing to me, seranade me, love me. but its not, 20 more to go. id say its not out of the question. ill let ya know when it comes, ill invite you over, and in payment for the sing seranade love, a festival will be prepared in their honor. it will be called the mafaque. oh damn, forgot.. thats already taken.

there is a time in every young womans life when their parents command them to get a job and threaten them to be cut off from all their gracious funding she/i have become so accostomed to in the past. this is a heartwrenching reality kicker and its in the works right now. in every conversation my mom will so eloquently work in a phrase or two about the JOB. we were sitting in starbucks today and she goes. hey nora, theres a paper over there, lets quit our game of checkers and look at the job listings.. you cant jsut quit a game of checkers.. she should be ashamed. or hey we are right across from pier one, go on over and pick up an application. NO i dont want to MOTHER. i will go when i am good and ready and not a second sooner. no matter how much you cursed at me.. i quit sucking my thumb in 7th grade all on my own and not a second before because i was picked on and i will do the same with getting a job. leave me ALONE. but continue giving me money please and thank you. :) with that i usually get a smack or two.

as we all know, its allergy season and mine are in full force. sometimes i wish i could just burn my face off. i dont know why but it sorta seems like if i dont have a face anymore, consequentially, i would no longer have allergies and that means i would have WON. however, that oppurtunity cost is sorta a deterant. no allergies no face or deal with allergies and have a face. going into the deal blind i would probably go with the former, however ive seen some of those people on maury polvitch, ya know the i have half a face/i have burns covering 80 percent of my body episodes, and let me say that some of those guys arent lookin so good, some call them deformed, i call em unfortunatly uggg leigh (they are all named that). in conculsion, i suppose i can deal with the allergies.
THERE ARE WORSE THINGS IN THE WORLD.

so let that be a lesson to all you livejournal fanatics. im being stereotypical here, but on average, all you ever talk about is depressing stuff, like ohhh i just dont know what has been wrong with me lately.. nothing seems to make me happy/horney. im fat, i need a new style. blah is what i am. i know ive been there, i have one of these things dont i? well just remember THERE ARE WORSE THINGS IN THE WORLD. you could be on maury polvitch talking about why you are missing your torso or were born with only half a scull, ya know? but the ironic thing is... ill bet you $400 that everyone of those POOR DISFIGURED SONS OF BITCHES have better attitudes then you. and not everyone. ie: i know brian lawson is never depressed but he reads this shit. i know chelsey tanner does to, she doesnt actually have a journal, but she reads em like its her job, and shes never depressed, just winey and sportin the baditude (bad attitude) but thats why i heart her. so if youre ok then thumbs but if you need some help in the mood department, DONT GO TO A PSYCHOLOGIST. they will medicate you until the cows come home and you may be "happier" but you will never be "happy" so figure it out your damn old self and dont funnel your dollas into a fake doctors mouth. i say their mouths because that is the only part on them that ever does any work, what happened to hard labor, building pyramids and plowin the fields and whatnot. we seem to be very caught in the TWOTHOUSANDFIVE or TWENTY"o"FIVE if you will. we should try to find the FIFTEENHUNDREDANDTWENTYFOUR or perhaps even EIGHTEENHUNDREDANDFOURTEEN, you know, whatev.

i need to take a breather.. but this has been fun, i like typing furiosly. whas my name, whas my name..


ryan seacrest..........................................OUT

i really need a new pair of jeans.


weekend in a day.
that day is the death test day.
i hope i make it thru


chels- sorry i almost ruined our lives.. ive never done anything like that in my life. i cant stop thinking about it. hope you are feeling better.

got a call today...

someone in indonesia charged $9000 worth of shit onto my dad's credit card.
where is citi when you need 'em

stolen from josh..

I AM: cold and confused

I WANT: to be in your arms

I HAVE: a job app in front of me
I WISH: i was more like her

I HATE: dust
I MISS: you
I FEAR: the dark
I HEAR: my heart

I SEARCH: for a pirates X
I WONDER: how long i will be here
I REGRET: not kissing you everytime i could have
I LOVE: the smell of my room
I AM NOT: asian
I DANCE: everyday
I SING: everyday
I CRY: frequently enough
I AM NOT ALWAYS: wearing clothes
I WRITE: when i have to
I CONFUSE: everything
I NEED: love, fun, hugs, beauty, attention, coffee, friends
I SHOULD: be more concerned about the future

x. Father thinks I: my mother spoils me
x. Mother thinks I: i can do no wrong
x. My boyfriend/girlfriend thinks I am: i actually have no idea
x. three things you are often complimented for: clothes, eyes, hair
x. You get embarrassed when: i say something retarded and people call me out on it
x. Makes you happy: being close
x. Upsets you: empty space

Yes or no...
x. You keep a diary: no
x. You like to cook: given my mood
x. You have a secret you have not shared with anyone: no
x. You set your watch a few minutes ahead: no, i like exactness
x. You bite your fingernails: occationally but not enough to bite all the way through
x. You believe in love: yes

Who is...?

Your close friends: chelsey, mandie, jeff, bri and pat, i guess
The Person that Knows the Most about you: chels maybe court
The last image/thought you go to sleep with: usually brian, sometimes what i plan to wear the next day


2. Do You...?
Take a shower everyday: noo
Have a(any) crush(es): yes
Think you know you've been in love: yeah. i dont know
Want to get married: yes
Have any tattoos/where: no
Piercings/where?: yes 4 ears
Get motion sickness: nope
Think you're a health freak: on a given day, yes
Get along with your parents: yes
Like thunderstorms: love

WHEN YOU SEE THIS NAME YOU THINK OF

Ryan: next door
Tiffany: blonde
Josh: tall
James : bond
Brianna : desperate

Billy : free willy
Teri: superman
Nick: saint
Patrick : orange
Kim : eww

( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )

CRIED? yes
HELPED SOMEONE? yes

BOUGHT SOMETHING? not with my money
GOTTEN SICK? not physically
GONE TO THE MOVIES? yes
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? yes

SAID I LOVE YOU? no
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? nope
TALKED TO AN EX? yeah
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? nope
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON? yea
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? yes
MISSED SOMEONE? always

HUGGED SOMEONE? no
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? yes
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? yes

Would You Ever..

1. Eat a bug? sure
2. Bungee jump? Yes!
3. Hang glide? YES!
4. Kill someone? no
7. Have sex with someone of the same sex? no
8. Parachute from a plane? yes
9. Walk on hot coals? yes
10. Go out with someone for their looks? yes
11. For their reputation? yes
12. Be a vegetarian? yes
13. Wear plaid with stripes? no. sorry
14. IM a stranger: yes
15. Sing karaoke? yes
17. Shoplift? circumstances providing
18. Run a red light? once i can drive.. yeah
19. Star in a porn video? no
20. Dye your hair blue? yea
21. Be on Survivor? yes!
22. Die for someone you didnt know? no


breathe, your fine
my throat hurts dammit

1 0 5 b o n e s ... h o l y g o d

that was intense, way to go fat girl
i like people who arent afraid to achieve their dreams..
im sure you will have an hour of completly awkward and weird dancing
fun with your prey (play on the word stalking)(we all know she was if she was ready to dish out over 100 bucks to buy that kid)


as for everyhting else.. uh, yeah

all i can say is i really need a good weekend spent somewhere that is not my house

dav is funny, now, along with secure and attractive
this is very exciting

bowling anyone? yeah i think so

i haven t felt like such a fish out of water in a really long time
i can t put my finger on why i have been feeling so awkward.
all i know is i think it s really obvious.
and i think it may hurt me if something doesn t give pretty soon.



for those who this pertains to...
there will be no more bonfires at my house til the summer burn on the night school gets out on the count or i need a break from this place. but mark your calenders because it is going to be the beginning of thee best summer.



i actually cannot wait until this year is over. its been nothing but terrible for me.

next year. i have hope it will }rule{



i want to meet a new kind of people, im bored of the normal ones.
i want to fight and disagree and laugh at how different we would be from eachother.
i dont know anyone like that.
everyones the same

thats why i liked that one kid so much. i could talk to him for hours because we were so different.
its just frusterating, im frusterating.


whatever. just let it go.



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i am starting a new hobby.. i just have to fine tune the details.

they are called shrooms.
comments or tips.. post up.

i walked home today in the sunshine with my head full of glorious thoughts.
i stopped at the park, took my shoes off and swang on the swings. You should have been there.
i had a really good day.

heres to you.

so.

myrtle beach was good. had an awesome time with mandie.

last night was nuts. honestly. probably the funniest night ive ever had. and the best.

was sick all weekend.

Myrtle in 2 days.. i could not be more excited to say goodbye to all that is michigan for one week.

-nora <3

i tutored eric today. he is a really cool kid. i haven't seen him in 7 years but i still really like him. hes real cute, kinda cubby but very endearing. he needed help with factoring. his mom gave me $45 for 3 hours of hangin out wiht him.

hope the vbm was fun.

sometimes i cant stand to be with myself. i really annoy myself and wish i had a reason for it.